“Everyone wants more than anything to be allowed into someone else’s most secret self. Everyone wants to allow someone into their most secret self. Everyone feels so alone inside that their deepest wish is for someone to know their secret being, because then they are alone no longer. Don’t we all long for this? ”~ Aiden Chambers, This Is All: The Pillow Book of Cordelia Kenn
“I have something for you in my pocket,” Kenny said as he dug deep to pull something out of his pant’s pocket. With the start of a grin he tentatively approached me. I imagined a rock or a seashell or maybe a toy car of his was hidden in his clenched fist. He stopped inches from me, smiled a smile that melted my heart, and threw his arms around me as he whispered, “It’s a hug for you.” And off he ran, very happy with himself.
He started that tradition about a month ago. I don’t know where he got the idea, but every day now, sometimes a few times in one day, he says, “I have something in my pocket for you, Mommy.”
Kenny treasures his feelings and the good ones are the ones he wants to share the most.
But what’s really interesting is that he has been so misunderstood and his tender feelings have been hurt so much in the past year that sharing love for him has been difficult. But he found a way to give what he had in a way that he could.
Reminds me of a similar event that Christ witnessed almost 2,000 years ago at the temple in Jerusalem where offerings were being made:
“And there came a certain poor widow, and she threw in two mites, which make a farthing.
“And he called unto him his disciples, and saith unto them, Verily I say unto you, That this poor widow hath cast more in, than all they who cast into the treasury:
“For all they did cast of their abundance; but she of her want did cast in all that she had, even all her living.” ~Mark 12:42
Kenny has taught me a lot lately:
- We must give what we want most with no expectation of the gift being returned.
- We should dig deep and give gifts of value, the ones buried in our hearts – the ones that last.
- It’s hard to make the first move, but the humble and meek will always be the ones who lead out.
- Become as a child.
Christmas and Hanukkah are upon us.
Just some thoughts about giving for you.
Do you have any?